Thursday, 23 February 2012

happy birthday love

happy birthday mister hubby..
i love u...
may u be blessed with all things great, be given lots of success and happiness..
may u be granted with never-ending love and warmth..
may good things always come ur way...

thank u for all the things u have gone through..
the good and the bad times, the bittersweet experiences..
thank u for living ur life without any regrets..
thank u for being u without any worries...

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you

My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with graditude
'Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you

Monday, 20 February 2012

why la la land?

hey there wonderful people..
some people ask me why lalaland...isn't it sort of dream land where people get dreamy and sleepy and unrealistic..

well, the same applies to my my unrealistic land.,a land where only me can see the realistic views of what i wrote and shall write later in the future..a land where i envision my world..a land where i write things that might be considered silly to some people or perhaps to all people.

a fast stone capture of

silly me but hey, everyone is silly in his or her own way..

Friday, 17 February 2012

our 11th year anniversary

 hey there peeps..
how's ur day?

 as the title suggests, today marks me and my husband's 11th year anniversary..
we met in early 2001 at our school's prefect meeting..that was the first time we laid eyes on each other (chewahhh)..we became friends for about a month and then mister hubby asked the question and of course i said yes..
we declared the relationship on 17th February 2001..
we had quite a long relationship, and decided to tie the knot and made it official on 5th June 2010..

it has been 11 years since..
taken when we were in pd for our school's prefect dinner back in 2001, 
we have gone through many things, many happiness and hurdles as well..we went through bittersweet moments..of course, there were times when we got mad at each other, (but we never yell at each other) and times when we felt that we were never on the same page (but we found ways to make things work)..there were times when he annoyed me so much but then that's who he is..he could tolerate my inconsistent  mood and behaviors and so i knew that i should ignore his..we even experienced financial difficulties together (yelah, masa tu sama-sama tgh belajar, mana nk ada duit sgt)..if he had extra money, he would give me half..and if i knew he didn't have much money, i would give him half of what i had at that time..yelah, dh sama-sama angau, sama-sama la susah kan, takkan nk senang je sama-sama, tak adil la..kdg2, kalau papa top-up credit lebih, cthnya papa top-up rm30, i would transfer to him selalu kalu credit hp dh nk kurang, i would ask papa to top-up pastu i would share with mister hubby..hehee..

zaman muda-mudi, in 2008
having spent 11 years together makes us realize that we become better when we have each other..we know that we will never worry about life when we have each other..we shape each other's life..
people (mostly my students) ask me, how do i manage to keep the relationship strong..honestly, i don't even know how..i don't have the answer..

back when we were in school, we never though that our relationship would last this long..i though that when the school ends, our relationship would also end..(because there would be no other way for us to see each other everyday)..but boy i was dead wrong (and i'm happy that i was wrong)..hehehe..we kept on contacting each other, through home phone (masa tu handphone ni takde lagi okay,mahal nk mati masa tu,  mau kena ketuk dgn papa kalau mintak handphone)..we met each other on weekends (luckily masa tu family duk usj lagi, belum pindah around the universe lagi)..
so when my family had to move to langkawi (papa kena jadi manager airport langkawi) i was left alone in shah alam (masa tu tgh study kat uitm)..mister hubby was always there for me ever since..he did a lot of things for me and to me and with me..i am grateful for that..when my family moved to sabah from langkawi, i wasn't as sad as i was before..hehehe..because i had my mister with i didn't worry much about being left alone in the peninsular..heheh..

i think, upon reminiscing back our bitter and sweet memories, i guess i now know the answer to how do we keep our relationship strong..we never plan the future..we never think of what will happen to us  in years time..we never worry about what and how to see each other after the school ends..we never think of how many kids to have, when to get married and where to live..we just live our live as it like mister hubby always say, "tk payah susah fikir psl masa depan, tau la kita nk menggayakannya bila smpai masanya nanti, buat  masa ni kita hidup untuk apa yang ada"..
our first raya as huband and wife (in 2010)..muka penat g jln rumah sedara sana sini..
so here's to my mister hubby..
i love you, from the moment we met..
i will always love you, till the end of the world..
i love you, for who you are..
i  love you, for who you will become
i thank you, for being you..

Monday, 13 February 2012


assalamualaikum's ur day? hope everything's good..

well, mine is okay..with a little worry about life and what future has in store for us..
coming back to the title above, i think i would like to share my thoughts about having kids..
actually, i had a chat with one close friend..she was and still is one of the people i look up to especially her language of the few people i could confide in whenever i have problems and we would share secrets and thoughts..i love her though we don't contact each other as often as we should these days..

she got married before early that year..and she told me that she is sad because she still couldn't seem to get pregnant..she wants to get pregnant so badly, maybe because she has reaches her 30s this year and her husband is like 3 or 4 years older than time is ticking...they are getting older..she wants to get and to seek specialist's opinions and treatments...i told to go as soon as possible because as i said earlier, time is ticking and it waits for no man..i hope she can get pregnant as soon as possible..i really do..i think when she has a child she would stop thinking about other things..u see, she likes to think, a bit philosophical i intelligent lady who likes to think about life and then get stressed about it..

u see, she has been married for almost two years first, she told me that she wasn't ready to get pregnant and therefore she had family planning..i understand her, she's quite weak and vulnerable and get stressed easily..and to add to that, she had to travel every week for her master's classes..that's why she said she wasn't ready to get pregnant..

i told her that  we shouldn't plan our first child..never ever think of it..i have 2 reasons of why we should't plan our first child..

1) every child is Allah's rezeki..let us put it this way..kita tanak anak lagi sbb kita tak ready, kewangan tak stabil, atau sebab kita muda lagi, bila kita cakap mcm tu, sama lah seperti kita bgtau Allah yang kita tak ready nak terima rezeki dari Dia..atau dgn kasarnya, kita tanak rezeki Dia..perlu ke kita buat mcm tu..anak itu rezeki Allah yang paling berharga, lebih dari duit, pekerjaan dan usia..
my aunties cukup marah kalau ada ahli keluaraga yg cakap nak plan anak pertama..yelah, org dulu2 lebih makan garamnya sbb tu la diorg tau byk..
apart from my friend who i mentioned above, i have few friends who find it difficult for them to get pregnant..i feel sorry for them..but then again, i think that their difficulties are due to them not wanting get pregnant secepat mungkin..and sekarang dh susah nak pregnant sbb dulu tanak sgt2 pregnant..
tapi ntah la, semua rezeki Allah..

2) this is what my husband says : anak pertama jgn sekali dirancang sbb kita tak tau kesihatan kita mcm mana..cthnya la kan, kalao kita dh umur 30 nanti baru nak ada anak, pastu tak pregnant mesti kita stress kan..kita tak tau tahap kesihatan kita mcm mana..mungkin luaran nmpak sihat, tapi bahagian produktif kita tak sesihat yang kita sangka..then nak g berubat, jumpa pakar..tak ke dh amik masa yg lama utk semua tu..alih-alih 3 atau 4 tahun lepas tu baru berjaya pregnant..tak ke sayang sbb dh bazirkan masa, dgn duit least kalo kita nak pregnant di awal perkahwinan tapi tak berjaya, kita dh blh usahakan dgn jumpa pakar ke berubat ke..dh jimat masa dan wang..

ini cuma pendapat saya..tak semestinya betul..semua manusia punya pandanganyang berbeza..ini ialah apa yg saya rasa dan sebab musabab yang saya sendiri fikir tantang kenapa kita tak perlu nak merancang anak pertama..

Friday, 10 February 2012

kaer af

kaer..kaer azami..
budak comel..
tersangat suka dia dulu masa dia dlm akademi fantasia 2, sekarang pun still suka dan minat dia..
though he has been in hiatus for quite a while tapi dgr khabarnya dia dh buat comeback..
oh yeah..
below is one of his latest songs...

and dgr2 jugak, bukan dgr tapi baca la okay, yg dia nk smbung masters dia kat london..well, kalau dh anak org kaya apa semuanya tak mustahil kan..but still, walaupun anak org kaya, dia mmg seorang yg down to earth dan cool..sekarang ni dh ada design label sendiri..agak cool la baju2 dia..
kaer is one the few malaysian artists yg sy suka, the rest sy tgk sebelah mata je semuanya..kalau kaer atau zahiril adzim mmg sy tgk dgn mata yg sengaja dibesarkan lagi..teeheehee..

 kaer best..kaer comel..