baby girl is 1..happy birthday..

baby girl is 1..

i'm one happy mum..

happy birthday Fatinah Zainab..

mama loves u with all my heart and soul..i will do everything to make u happy and healthy..

Alhamdulillah, you have achieved so many milestones before you even reached that one year age..your first teeth at 4 months old, your first crawl at 7/8 months old and your first baby steps at 10 months old..good job baby girl..

mama wishes you all the best..may you grow up healthily and happily..may u be blesses with never-ending love and support, great success and life..

we are proud of you..mama, papa and abang love you..you are our one and only Fatinah Zainab..bak kata nenek, adik ni lain dari cucu yang lain, adik ni penyeri, budak bijak, anak rezeki sebab cara adik jalan kaut rezeki..aminn, mudah-mudahan benar kata nenek ye adik..

Happy Birthday Hubs: 23 February

happy birthday to you..

happy birthday to you..

happy birthday dear hubby..

happy birthday to you..

sebab hari ni dh 25Feb..

i hope you enjoy and appreciate all the treats that me and the kids had prepared..



birthday treat to Grand Lexis Port Dickson





birthday present: LG Nexus 5



maaflah kalo tak grand, ini je yg kami 3 beranak boleh sediakan..
we love u always...
you are our hero, and will always be..



Wishlist#1

sejak dh makin tua ni dh makin dewasa dan matang ni, minat kepada barang yg lebih kedewasaan tu makin meninggi..perubahan hormonkah?

kalo muda remaja dulu, brand yg utk muda belia menjadi target utama..
sekarang ni, kami dh mula berminat kat brand yg lebih keperempuanan dan keibuan..
hahaha..apakah? kenapakah?
adakah naluri keibuan semakin meningkat?

nah, ni dia brg pertama yg kami terliur untuk tahun ni..
Coach Bleecker Cooper..

harga? tgk kat website coach rm1800 mcm tu la..memang akan pokai..makanya, without a doubt akan terus berada di dlm wish list smpai bila-bila la ni..tapi kan hubs ckp kwn dia blh tlg belikan kat us, dia boleh belikan bwh rm1000..and besides, dia ada colleague yg keja kat us..and plus, hubs tau kalo beli kat premium outlet sana mmg boleh dpt murah..kan hari tu dia borong persiapan raya kami anak beranak kat Texas..
tapi still akan buat kami pokai jugak walaupun boleh dpt bwh dr rm1000..

makanya, item ini akan tetap jadi wishlist je la..

them..always them..

i miss them..

i seriously do (terasa masa nk nangis la pulak)..

i miss talking and laughing and dining and then talking..
gosshhh, i miss everything..

to be honest, i don't really have a close buddy here in WK..everyone in my team is doing their own work and minding their own business.
cukup masa, semua blk on time..
i pun sama..
i have few people yg i always lepak2 and chat kat oc selalu tapi tu je la..

i miss having a heart-to-heart conversation with my good/best friends.
and now that all of us are far apart, mcm makin susah je nk keep in touch with each other..




i kdg2 ada sms dgn Asmah, apparently she's the only one yg timing dia sama mcm i..maklumlah, dh jadi mak2 kan..tapi tu pun tak kerap mana, kang borak lama2 tiba2 anak panggil..kejap2 anak cari..she knows me, i know her..masing2 dh ada family commitment yg mmg 24 jam akan panggil kita..

Jem is in Aussie, doing her phd..
babe, i miss u..lepak2, mkn2, borak2 luahkan perasaan hati..
i always feel happy when i'm with u..kita kan sama..
dr minat, perasaan, semuanya lah..


i miss Fara, i have no idea of what she is doing now and where she is..Fara, aku rindu ko mung..

Zue akan pindah Kuantan..
walaupun masa Zue kat sini, we still couldn't find a date/time to hang out..sorry Zue..i truly am sorry for not being able to lepak2 dgn Zue..
i wish i could turn back time..

12th year..

The first year 

felt

awkward, and,

our second year

had

a sense of everything, so,

we

made our third year

exciting,

and let,

our fourth

became unpredictable, but,

we

were

determined

to make our fifth

wonderful.

Our sixth,,

then

was

near perfect,

we

endured

everything

on our seventh year.

then came our eighth,

full of joy and sorrow, 

and, so,

we knew

our ninth year together

must be

super special,

and then,

our tenth year

gave

us

the biggest gift of all.

We

fell

way more than heads-over-heels

in love

in our eleventh year,

and, now,

it's our twelfths year,

together,

wishing,

it will be forever.

happy anniversary B..

happy couple/relationship anniversary..

i couldn't and wouldn't ask for more..

Aleesya :)

Assalamualaikum..

we had a very adorable visitor/guest last Saturday.

baby Aleesya dtg melawat nenek dan atuknya..
kesian Aleesya, berjalan dlm cuaca panas..dh la rumah atuk/nenek menghadap matahari terbenam, lagi la panas..

but even with that, Aleesya is a good girl, never cried except when dia nk parents dia la.

thank you Aleesya sudi dtg jauh2..
semoga Aleesya membesar dgn sihat agar memberikan kebahagian buat ibu dan ayah ye Aleesya..

atuk/nenek harap Aleesya suka hadiah tu..atuk tu syg sgt kat ayah Aleesya..

mereka membesar sama2..susah senang sama2..
pergi kerja sama, monteng keja pun sama2..pendek kata dulu semuanya bersama..
dh kawen ni je kurang bersama, yelah masing2 ada keluarga sendiri, commitment sendiri..

atuk tu kalau psl ayah Aleesya mmg dia takkan berkira..syg benar kat ayah Aleesya tu..cuma dia tak tunjuk je..
sbb tu dia sanggup keluarkan sikit duit utk belikan Aleesya hadiah, walaupun tak semahal mana..
tapi cukup la agar dpt membuat ayah Aleesya gembira..
itupun atuk dh pilih dan survey elok2 dh..nk cari yg selesa, kaler pink, yg penting reversible handle so that Aleesya blh nmpk ayah ibu..
(it is advisable to look for stroller yg ada function reversible handle sbb newborn baby or baby yg still under 1 yr ni gayat, he/she needs to have his/her parents around baru rasa selamat..
kot beli yg takleh tgk parents, mcm stroller Firash tu mmg jenuh la..mmg Firash taknak duduk pun dlm tu masa dia kecik..ni dh besar baru okay..)

atuk nenek baru nak stabikan blk kewangan, selama ni gaji semuanya tu nenek belanjakan utk rumah, settlekan brg rumah..kalau Aleesya perasan (mmg tak la nenek oi, apa gila nenek ni nak suruh baby baru lahir perasan) rumah pun tak complete lagi kan Aleesya..jadi ni je la yg termampu, setelah ditolak ditambah dibahagi perbelanjaan bulanan..

atuk/nenek harap2 Aleesya pun gembira, nanti ibu ayah mesti gembira sama kan..

welcome 2013

Alhamdulillah..

source: http://empathicguidance.wordpress.com/2009/12/29/new-year-new-start/

kita dh selamat melangkah ke tahun yg baru, tahun 2013..

a new year, a new beginning..

my resolution(s)? ntah la..tak pernah ada resolution utk thn baru ni..

oh ya, ada satu..teeheehee..tahun ni sy ingin menambah ahli keluarga, iaitu menjadikan Ahmad Firash seorang abang..in shaa Allah..mudah-mudahan Allah kurniakan kami rezeki..
bagi saya, anak itu adalah rezeki yg paling tak ternilai dan paling berharga..

anda pula bagaimana? apa azam thn baru anda?

Wordless Wednesday 17

source: http://sarjenkeroro.blogspot.com/2009_03_01_archive.html

ya Allah, semoga Kau jauhilah aku dari sifat sebegini kerana aku tidak mahu menyusahkan suami ku Ya Allah..

Salam Aidilfitri 2012

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI..

Maaf dipinta agar kita semua dapat meraikan lebaran dgn penuh kasih sayang dan kesyukuran..

source: http://sekamarrindu2009.blogspot.com/2011/08/selamat-hari-raya-aidilfitri-buat-semua.html

Alhamdulillah, tahun ni tahun keTIGA sy menyambut Aidilfitri sebagai isteri kepada suami tercinta (tapi sebenarnya dh tahun ke 11 beraya dgn dia)..dan tahun ni tahun keDUA beraya sebagai seorang ibu..

tahun ni sepatutnya giliran beraya di Kuala Lumpur (dh buat perjanjian dgn husband, tiap2 tahun kena rotate giliran balik raya di kg halaman masing2, kena adil la kan..kami bincang senang je, tanya nk raya mana dulu pastu decide..senang mcm mkn kacang je kan..takde gaduh ke berdebat ke apa ke masa nk decide raya mana, well, i guess sbb kami dh kenal lama jadi kami sgt2 tau hati budi masing2)....

tapi disebabkan husband beraya di USA maka dia suruh kami dua beranak blk beraya di Kelantan je..huhu..jadi tahun dpn giliran beraya di Kuala Lumpur la sbb dh guna giliran tu tahun ni kan..raya kedua kami 2 beranak blk KL blk sbb nk menjemput husband di KLIA raya ketiga..we'll do anything for u papa..

sedih dan sayu pun ada sebab teringat kat suami tercinta yg jauh..nk skype ucap selamat hari raya, pohon ampun maaf pun payah sbb kita siang tapi dia mlm..huhuhu..nak beraya dgn suami tapi tak dpt..nasib baik ada Firash sebagai penghilang duka..insyaAllah, sy amik cuti raya keempat sbb kononnya nk g jln raya dgn husband la..tapi ntah la..sy dpat cuti sehari je sebabnya 24hb ni ada deadline for clearance of New Zealand loose leaf journal..huhuhu TT

apa pun, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfiti buat semua yg sudi menjengah blog ni..sy mohon maaf jika saya ada terkasar bahasa atau tersinggung perasaan sesiapa..

Kereta Idaman

Hi..Assalamualaikum..
apa khabar semua? sihat?

hari ni nak ckp psl kereta idaman..
something that i wish i could have..
kalau ikutkan hati, memang nak sgt Audi A4 warna merah..of course la warna merah..
tapi apakan daya, kami ni bukan org kaya raya mewah duit berjuta-juta so memang tak mampu la nak bawa Audi A4..sumpah Audi A4 ni sgt cantik dan hebat dan handsome gagah perkasa.

source: google 

kami cuma mampu melihat dan tersenyum je.

and lately, me and my husband have been talking and planning to get ourselves a second car that basically serves as a family car..we want something that is bigger, that can store lots of things mcm stroller and our shoes and many more..yelah dh ada nak ni, kereta penuh dgn brg dia je..tu baru anak sorg, belum tambah adik2 Firash lagi..insyaAllah thn dpn boleh la usaha utk anak kedua kot..hehehe..and we also something that suits our style and taste..

mula2 tu husband suggest utk beli Mazda 3 je..i thought that is a good idea..Mazda 3 ada kaler merah yg lawa (wajib kaler merah okay)..
cantik jugak Mazda 3 kaler merah..garang, menawan, hebat dan macho..

source: google

source: google

kalo monthly kena byr bwh rm1500 i still think it's okay kot..still boleh la nak byr..
tapi ntah mcm mana my husband rasa nk tgk Hyundai Elantra yg baru tu..so we went to the showroom and memang cantik pun..murah lagi dari Mazda 3..storage capacity pun lebih kurang je..its features and interior pun sama je dgn Mazda 3..

source: google

source: google

ntah la..kami pun tak tau..nak angkat ke tak..nak beli kerata baru pun susah jugak sekarang ni..sebabnya kalo nak guna loan under my name, i still have the Myvi loan and i might have to let my Myvi go if i want to buy a new car..husband pun dh ada 2 car loans under his name..he bought a car for his father..another car is his cousin's, dia pinjam guna my husband's name since he wasn't financially stable yet at that time..so kami pun tak tau la mcm mana..tunggu je la kan..

kalo dh ada rezeki untuk pakai kereta baru, adalah..lagipun buat masa sekarang ni kami duk sibuk uruskan hal rumah lagi..rumah dh dpt awal tahun tapi kami masih tak pindah masuk lagi..sebabnya rumah tu kosong so my husband dh ckp yg dia nak pindah bila semuanya dh siap sedia..maksudnya mcm furniture, kitchen cabinet, lampu kipas, alarm, grill, awning, rumput carpet bagai la..ntah la..rumah dia so takpelah kan..i just follow him, he's the leader of the family, what's good for him is good for me too..

Ahmad Firash is 1 year old today..

Happy birthday sayang mama..

Mama loves u a lot..

semoga Firash membesar menjadi anak yang sihat, baik budi pekerti, rajin mencari ilmu dunia dan akhirat, berjaya dalam hidup..semoga menajdi anak yang soleh, bijak, cergas, dan berwibawa. 

mama akan sentiasa doakan yang terbaik buat anak mama..

when he was 5 days old..

at 11months old

Ahmad Firash has accomplished  a lot.

he has 8 teeth, can walk, can do a lot of things, quite strong for a toddler his age..

he has become taller, but still weighs the same 11kgs..

he likes to eat, almost anything and everything..

he doesn't cry when mama has to leave him at the nursery, alhamdulillah..

perasaan seorang ibu

assalamualaikum..

alhamdulillah, Ahmad Firash dh semakin membesar dengan sihat dari segi fizikal, mental dan yang lain-lain..
insyaAllah, bulan 5 ni Ahmad Firash akan melangkah ke usia 1 tahun..
dan bulan 5 ni jugak, mama Firash akan mula bekerja sebagai pekerja tetap..no more free-lancing and part-timing..wuwuwu..
dh kena kerja office hours from 9.00am to 5.30pm, every weekdays..nasib baik la kat cyberjaya, boleh la car-pool dgn mr.hubs bila dia dh start kerja normal office hours bulan 6 nanti..hehehe..dan boleh la lunch date dgn mr.hubs every once in a while..


syukur Alhamdulillah di atas rezeki ini ya Allah..sesungguhnya hanya Engkau yang mampu memberi kesenangan buat hamba-hambaMU.
Alhamdulillah, segala kerisauan tentang kewangan keluarga dh didengari oleh Allah..walaupun husband can  afford to settle all the monthly debts (car loan, housing loan, groceries, unifi, phone bills, astro, electricty bill, parents' loan, security fees, and other daily expenses) and we still have money to spend here and there and on this and that tapi still la, i want to help him..kita ni hidup sebagai isteri takleh la nak pentingkan kesenangan diri sendiri je smpai  nak biarkan suami je tanggung semua kesusahan..kalau dulu sebelum kahwin berjanji nak susah sama-sama, senang sama-sama, tapi bila dh kahwin buat tak tau je..tak elok la macam tu kan..sebab tu la, i tried my best to ease my husband's burden and help him in any way i could..Alhamdulillah, dgn gaji yang tak seberapa ni boleh la i cover mana yg patut mcm sambung byr loan DuBuK @ DeBiK tu, Firash's nursery fees (standard la kan harga kl kan, 280 okay), home bills and etc..
.
kerja baru akan start bulan 5 ni..i dh tak berada dlm profession pendidikan but i will never stop teaching..teaching is what i like doing the most..jadi i akan tetap mengajar sebagai tenaga pengajar sambilan..it's not about the money, it's about the excitement and satisfaction of being a teacher..sungguh, kepuasan mengajar tu lain dari yang lain..

terima kasih semua, husband tercinta, anak tersayang, my family = papa, mama, abg, bila, bibi, akim, my husband's family = abah, mak, kakcik, busu..terima kasih di atas sokongan, dorongan dan motivasi..terima kasih kerana tak pernah berputus asa dan sentiasa mempercayai diri ini..insyaAllah, bila dpt first paycheck nanti, zrin akan belanja dua org kekasih hati tercinta itu, dan juga family B (sebab diorg kat KL je kan)..second paycheck pulak akan digunakan utk membelanja my family yg berada nun di Kelantan itu..

dalam pada excited itu, it worries me to think of leaving Firash at the nursery..can he survive there? will he be okay? will he fit in? will he be treated and handled nicely? will they care for him and not ill-treat him? ya Allah, macam-macam kerisauan dan persoalan yang ada..tapi apakan daya, terpaksa juga tinggal dia kat nursery.. tak sanggup nak mintak mama jaga dia sebab nanti mama mesti suruh tinggalkan Firash dgn mama kat Kelantan, tu yg setuju je bila husband kata tinggal je la kat nursery kat row dpn tu..nak cari pengasuh mmg susah kat sini..memang tak jumpa la, kalau jumpa pun dia dh tanak amik budak dh sbb dia dh jaga ramai..wuuwuwuuwuu TT..risaunya la ya Allah..semoga Ahmad Firash sentiasa berada di dalam jagaan mereka yang baik ya Allah..semoga Ahmad Firash sentisa dilindungi olehMu dan disayangi oleh semua ya Allah..

Congratulation Azrul and Irma

on the 1st of April, a close friend of mr.hubs got married and will live happily ever after..
mr.hubs was quite busy, going here and there, doing this and that..
katanya dia tak mampu nak menyumbangkan duit utk majlis, jadi dia cuma mampu utk sumbangkan tenaga..
(byk accident dan hal berlaku bulan 3 yg memerlukan duit yg byk)..(stress okay!)
rasanya ada la dlm 2 3 hari berturut-turut dia berulang dari balakong ke desa pandan..
he told me that this is one of his closest and dearest friends, sahabat dunia akhirat katanya..

Azrul and Irma..

congratulation..

we wish u all the best in your marriage..

may u be granted with lots of happiness and never-ending love and warmth that hopefully will bring sparks to your marriage..

 enjoy your moment together and cherish each other forever and ever..

and please produce lots of cute 'mini irma' and 'mini azrul' okay..

teehehee =)

our 11th year anniversary

 hey there peeps..
how's ur day?

 as the title suggests, today marks me and my husband's 11th year anniversary..
we met in early 2001 at our school's prefect meeting..that was the first time we laid eyes on each other (chewahhh)..we became friends for about a month and then mister hubby asked the question and of course i said yes..
we declared the relationship on 17th February 2001..
we had quite a long relationship, and decided to tie the knot and made it official on 5th June 2010..

it has been 11 years since..

taken when we were in pd for our school's prefect dinner back in 2001, 

we have gone through many things, many happiness and hurdles as well..we went through bittersweet moments..of course, there were times when we got mad at each other, (but we never yell at each other) and times when we felt that we were never on the same page (but we found ways to make things work)..there were times when he annoyed me so much but then that's who he is..he could tolerate my inconsistent  mood and behaviors and so i knew that i should ignore his..we even experienced financial difficulties together (yelah, masa tu sama-sama tgh belajar, mana nk ada duit sgt)..if he had extra money, he would give me half..and if i knew he didn't have much money, i would give him half of what i had at that time..yelah, dh sama-sama angau, sama-sama la susah kan, takkan nk senang je sama-sama, tak adil la..kdg2, kalau papa top-up credit lebih, cthnya papa top-up rm30, i would transfer to him rm15..so selalu kalu credit hp dh nk kurang, i would ask papa to top-up pastu i would share with mister hubby..hehee..

zaman muda-mudi, in 2008

having spent 11 years together makes us realize that we become better when we have each other..we know that we will never worry about life when we have each other..we shape each other's life..
people (mostly my students) ask me, how do i manage to keep the relationship strong..honestly, i don't even know how..i don't have the answer..

back when we were in school, we never though that our relationship would last this long..i though that when the school ends, our relationship would also end..(because there would be no other way for us to see each other everyday)..but boy i was dead wrong (and i'm happy that i was wrong)..hehehe..we kept on contacting each other, through home phone (masa tu handphone ni takde lagi okay,mahal nk mati masa tu,  mau kena ketuk dgn papa kalau mintak handphone)..we met each other on weekends (luckily masa tu family duk usj lagi, belum pindah around the universe lagi)..
so when my family had to move to langkawi (papa kena jadi manager airport langkawi) i was left alone in shah alam (masa tu tgh study kat uitm)..mister hubby was always there for me ever since..he did a lot of things for me and to me and with me..i am grateful for that..when my family moved to sabah from langkawi, i wasn't as sad as i was before..hehehe..because i had my mister with me..so i didn't worry much about being left alone in the peninsular..heheh..

i think, upon reminiscing back our bitter and sweet memories, i guess i now know the answer to how do we keep our relationship strong..we never plan the future..we never think of what will happen to us  in years time..we never worry about what and how to see each other after the school ends..we never think of how many kids to have, when to get married and where to live..we just live our live as it is..as like mister hubby always say, "tk payah susah fikir psl masa depan, tau la kita nk menggayakannya bila smpai masanya nanti, buat  masa ni kita hidup untuk apa yang ada"..

our first raya as huband and wife (in 2010)..muka penat g jln rumah sedara sana sini..

so here's to my mister hubby..

i love you, from the moment we met..

i will always love you, till the end of the world..

i love you, for who you are..

i  love you, for who you will become

and

i thank you, for being you..

Welcome 2012

welcome..

please be good to me, my family and my loved ones..and also to everyone else..

may u bring a lot of great things, success, and happiness this year...

let's begin this 2012 with good beginning and let's end it with great ending..

from: http://new-year-card.blogspot.com/2010/04/new-year-quotes-cards.html

Happy New Year everyone..

have fun and enjoy 2012..

happy 27th birthday

i am officially 27 today..happy birthday to me...

and to my bestie Jamilah Shaari..i love u babe..

happy birthday to u and me..i heart u babe..

dear miss Jamilah Bt Shaari..

may u be blessed with all things great, be granted with lots of success..cepat2 la abis phd supaya aku blh panggil ko dr,jamilah..i'm always there for u (not through hp la, u know i'm not that alert when it comes to hp)..nanti ko dtg kl, kita ke tmpt fav ko iaitu sushi king sama2 ek, then ke starbucks cafe..pastu kita gossip2 psl rain ko dan rain aku (ko la penyebab aku minat rain)...i miss u babe..rindu sama2 masuk keja lewat, sama2 sakit kepala fikir nk lunch kat mana, sama2 fikir nak ngajar apa, sama2 fikir itu ini...sumpah rindu semua itu...

i wish for this

I wish to have a candle light dinner on my birthday but I know that is not going to happen since I have to attend Dr.Richard's class that morning or else I'll be given 'cuti khas' since I already missed Dr.Richard's classes two times this semester. I do not want that to happen because I want to finish this long-agony journey of getting my Master's Degree as soon as possible.
then after the class, I have to rush back home and pack my stuff, my hubby's and Firash's stuff as well and we'll head back to Kelantan because hubby's cousin is getting married the next day. so I guess the only things that I'll be getting are fatigue and 'panda-eyes'. (i feel like crying already)..

I wish to have candle light dinner because I never have one..never ever..my boyfriend, who is now my husband, isn't the romantic affectionate kind of person so he never brings me to that kind of place. in fact we never celebrate our anniversaries or birthdays together..I guess time and distance make us feel that way.
and now that I am a mother, and having gone through the pain of giving birth few months ago, I feel like I want to have some romantic time with my husband. I didn't get to do that on his birthday because I was 6months pregnant and at that time, all I want to do was sit and enjoy the comfort of being at home. I wasn't able to do that on my wedding anniversary because I was in confinement last June.

I really want to feel what it's like to be in a romantic candle light dinner.once is enough for me..I envy those who have been to one.
so the only thing I can do to make myself feel better is by googling the best place for candle light dinner...
T T