maksud disebalik nama

Assalamualaikum..

this is a long overdue entry..entah kenapa macam tak tersudah-sudah entri ni..

i have people asking about the meaning behind my kids' name..kadang saya ingat maksud nama mereka, kadang tak pasti..teehee

Ahmad Firash: hamparan yang terpuji/pujian yang meluas..

sebenarnya kami ingtakan Firash bermaksud yang tajam akal tapi itu ialah maksud bagi Firas..kami memilih nama Firash sebab memang berkenan maksud ketajaman akal..bila dah mendaftar nama baru tau yang ada maksud lain..ada yang berkata Firash bermaksud hamparan..tapi mengikut kata abang ipar husband (dia belajar sekolah arab, belajar kat sana), maksud Firash bila digabungkan dgn Ahmad ialah hamparan pujian yang meluas..maka bila digabungkan masih membawa maksud pengertian yang elok..

Fatinah Zainab: haruman yang mengagumkan..

Fatinah bermaksud yang bijaksana, mengagumkan, menarik perhatian..Zainab pula nama puteri Rasulullah s.a.w, ia juga nama sejenis pokok yang harum dan wangi..

saya percaya kita sebagai ibubapa inginkan nama yang terbaik dan yang sesuai..moden atau klasik, asalkan bermakna dan bersesuaian sudahlah..

bila anak-anak demam berjemaah

anak-anak demam.

waa, bila anak-anak demam berjemaah, mak bapak kelam kabut berjemaah..


dua hari sebelum raya cina hari tu si Firash dan Fatinah demam, Firash mmg demam panas..cek temp bdh dh 38++. apa lagi masuk ubat montot la.. then the body temp turun la sikit tapi mlm tu naik blk..Fatinah pulak temp tak berapa tinggi dlm 36, 37 mcm tu tapi kami still risau la.. mmg selalu monitor body temp budak2 ni je keja maknya ni ha..dh mcm nurse pulak, termometer tu duk bw hulu hilir..kejap cek temp adik, kejap cek temp abg.

tapi sebabkan abg dh besar, we didn't worry much..bukan la tak risau tapi mcm kurang sikit la sbb dh blh bw dia g klinik biasa je.. tapi adik kan baru 3 bulan, so kerisauan tu lebih la..kalo sakit je nk kena g cari klinik kanak-kanak jumpa paed, kami tak berani nk bw dia g klinik biasa..maknya ni berkeras nk g jumpa paed jugak. dh la nk raya cina, mmg tak dpt la nk jumpa paed adik sbb dia dh bercuti dh..makanya kami jumpa la paed abg..diorg ni paed lain-lain ye sbb adik still jumpa paed yg rawat dia masa dia lahir.. so makanya kami pun ke kajang la ke klinik pakar kanak-kanak dr.Saiful..ramai jugak org, mungkin sbb sekarang ni tgh musim budak/baby demam and mungkin jugak sbb dh nk raya cina kan..doc byk dh bercuti (mcm paed adik).. dr.Saiful ckp demam adik tak teruk, just batuk and selsema je..so he prescribed some meds for fever, flu and cough..he asked us to monitor Fatinah for few days..

dlm pada tu, kami pun ada usaha cara tradisional la..bukan g bomoh atau bidan ye, ni guna bahan semulajadi.. baca kat google, ramai ckp bwg putih elok utk legakan batuk berkahak.. kami pun cuba la..caranya ialah amik beberapa ketul bwg putih, bakar smpi hitam tapi jgn la smpai hangus..dh bakar tu, tumbuk tapi jgn la smpai lumat mcm nak masak tu..and then campurkan minyak masak..kami campurkan dgn olive oil je sbb dh mmg ada olive oil jadi guna la sbb nk abiskan olive oil ni.. then sapu la kat dada si adik..mmg adik berbau bwg ye..baju pun bau bwg.. nk kata dpt legakan batuk tu tak la, tapi kami perasan bila sapu bwg tu kat dada adik, mula-mula tu dia meronta tapi lepas tu dia senyap..tak lama lepas tu dia mcm ngantuk..mungkin sbb bwg kan panas, dh lama tu bwg tu ada kat dada dia, dia rasa sedap tu yg nk tido kot.. nk kata batuk tu hilang, tak jugak..Fatinah still batuk..yelah, batuk kan lmbt nk sembuh..tambah-tambah lagi bila dh berkahak.. kami juga bagi ubat yg paed prescribed..

and kami jugak mandikan anak-anak dgn air rebusan daun pokok bunga raya..ini petua dr ayah mentua..memang bila cucu-cucu dia demam, dia akan pesan suruh mandikan dgn air daun bunga raya.. caranya, rebus je daun bunga tu dlm periuk..bila dh mendidih, campur la dlm air mandian anak-anak..mandi je mcm biasa.. si Firash, kalo mandi dgn air ni, kejap je panas bdn dia turun..si Fatinah pulak kena mandi 2 3 kali jugak la baru suhu badan dia turun.. yang selebihnya ialah berdoa pd yg Allah..kita dh usaha kan, dh bw anak jumpa doctor, dh rawat guna bahan semulajadi.. Allah yg tentukan segalanya..

newborn baby kembung perut@colic@sarat(bahasa kelantan)

Assalamualaikum semua..

sihat? semoga sihat sentiasalah hendaknya..

Alhamdulillah, usia baby sy dh 23 hari (hari baru, belum bulan)..

kesihatan sy pun dh semakin baik, semakin cergas..mcm mana tak cergas, segala jenis ubat dan herba sy telan..berpantang kali ni sy consume Shaklee atas cadangan ofismate..sgt best dan berbaloi..selain dr tu sy juga minum jeli gamat supaya luka kat bwh tu cepat sembuh..air rebusan manjakani pun sy minum hari2 tapi kdg2 ngelat jugak la sbb pahitnya yg amat..

oh ya, sy sebenarnya nak bercerita ttg salah satu sakit yg common among babies (menurut google ye)..

adik Fatinah baru2 ni meragam yg amat sgt..the first 17 days tu adik okay je, tak byk meragam..tido mlm pun okay..tapi itu semua sementara je rupanya..adik sh mula meragam especially malam.asyik nangis je, nyusu pun payah, taknak tido atas tilam, nk org riba je..lepas tu kejap2 nangis smpai org igtkan kena sawan tangis..kdg2 tu kami igtkan adik kena gangguan ke apa ke..dia punya nangis tu smpai merah muka (nasib baik tak biru)..

disebabkan tokmanya risaukan cucunya, tokma dia ajak la papanya Fatinah g berubat, tgk kenapa..rupanya adik Fatinah ada penyakit sarat, org luar kelantan panggil kembung perut atau nama medicalnya colic..sakit ni mmg common among newborn babies (kata google) and ada tu smpai umur 4 bulan br hilang..tapi jgn risau sbb ianya akan hilang dgn sendirinya..ish, tapi kan mak bapak mana la yg takkan risau kalo anak yg br lahir nangis tak henti berjam lamanya..

and it turned out that i too had this before..bukan sy je, adik2 sy pun kena jugak dan ada sepupu2 yg senasib..keturunan rupanya..kesian adik, kenapa la sakit ni jugak yg adik dpt dr mama adik oi..adik tak ikut rupa mama tapi adik ikut perangai dan hal2 lain ye adik ye..abg Firash pulak fotostat muka mama tapi perangai dan lain2 tu ikut papa..my mum ckp sy dulu masa kecik pun ada sakit ni, in fact menurut mak sedara dan nenek sy, sy dulu lagi teruk dr adik Fatinah..mlm mmg tak tido langsung, nangis je keja..adik ni tido jugak la..

 kesian adik, kami tak sanggup nk tgk anak yg baru lahir nangis tak henti..

disebabkan tak tahan tgk adik nangis, bermacam tempat jugak la kami pergi..mula2 g jumpa poksu kat banggol kuim, dia bg air tawar dan kapur utk sapu kat perut..lepas tu kami ke labok pulak, jumpa pokya mintak dia urutkan adik..

esoknya, misi/nurse dtg rumah check sy dan baby..my mum bgtau la misi tu yg adik meragam mlm2 sakit sarat, pastu ada misi ckp anak dia dulu pun kena mcm ni jugak and dia cadangkan kami g jumpa Dr.Shafee..misi ckp ubat dia molek..ptg tu jugak my mum g clinic bw baby..Dr prescribed ubat utk adik..

tak puas hati, esoknya pulak, tokma ajak kami g jumpa tok bidan kg..ada sedara mara kami ckp toksu tu boleh tgkkan baby sakit sarat..maka kami pun ke sana la..kali ni sy pun ikut sekali sbb toksu nak mak baby ada sekali..

Alhamdulillah, sekarang ni adik dh jrg nangis malam..adik pun kerap kentut je..bagus la kan, tu tandanya angin dh kuar dr bdn adik..kami pun tak tau la rawatan mana yg serasi dgn adik, yg urut ke atau yg ubat ke atau yg air tawar ke..

selain dr g jumpa tukang urut dan tok bidan, kami jugak sapukan minyak telon Bayini..sebelum ni kami sapu vicks baby je..kali ni dh tukar guna minyak bayini pulak sbb lagi panas dan sesuai utk baby  yg ada angin ni..

kami tak guna minyak yuyi sbb hubs sy tak suka..hehehe..boleh pulak mcm tu kan..lagi satu, gripe water mmg kena sentiasa ada..agak berkesan untuk mecegah angin kembung..gripe water tu mmg ada la, mmg sentiasa bagi..abg Firash dulu pun guna gripe water ni jugak..

harap2 adik akan cepat sihat..kesian adik, asyik nangis je bila malam (yelah mlm kan sejuk, angin lagi senang masuk bdn)..papa mama dgn tokma pun dh tak letih dh adik, campur dh tak tau nk buat apa bila adik meragam..

breast pump: the thing that stresses me the most

Assalamualaikum semua..

ya Allah, we have about 6 weeks to go before the baby is out, but my obgyn said she could be out early because my first was born earlier than his expected due date..my obgyn said sometimes the first child is the indicator to how ur next child/childrens will be..

right now, there are still some stuff that we haven't bought like the breast pump and the tandem stroller..i wouldn't worry much about the stroller as we still have the MacLaren (which, hopefully, will be sold)..

i, however, am still worried about the breast pump thingy..i am not sure of what to buy..my hubs plans to buy a Medela Swing..we read reviews about it and most mothers/users said they are happy with it and that it is a good pump..and for someone whose milk supply isn't as rich as other mothers, i nees a pump thag can do wonders..and i also need a pump that offers convenience as to whenever and wherever i have to do my mummy job..so i think and based on the reviews that i read and heard, Medela Swing is the one..but of course la, if u could afford a Medela Freestyle, that would be even better..i think i can buy the Freestyle if i want to but then i have other financial commitments that i need to take care of (the car loan, duit kutu, hutang to my mum, my son's expenses, etc)..so it is better to gor for something cheaper but with good result..

some people asked why do i want to but a breast pump? why can't i use the one that i had before?

well, i had one and it was a Pureen manual breast pump..i didn't like that pump..milking/expressing was a pain and i stopped using it after few days..we bought it because it was the only pump that we could afford..u see, i was a homemaker/housewife when my first child was born..i didn't have an income..my hubs was the sole breadwinner and i wouldn't want to trouble him as he too had many things on his shoulders and being a good wife that i think i am, i didn't want to add more to it..and with him being the sole bread winner, i didn't want to ask stuff from him cause i know that there are important/high priority things that we can use that money for..so i told myself to just buy a cheap one..but i didn't expect it to be that painful..

and now that i am working, i think it is time to but a new breast pump that will do me good..but i am still undecided on which brand to buy..my heart thinks of Medela Swing..but my cousin suggested that Eve (can't remember its name)..a close friend suggested Rumble Tuff..

getting a breast pump is sure tough..leta juat hope that i will find a good one..

kemas-kemas blog

Assalamualaikum semua..
how r u guys doing?

maaf la tak sempat nk update blog..lagipun takde apa yg di sharekan kat sini..takde benda menarik pun yg terjadi..life was like usual..


nk kongsi resepi pun, sy ni bukannya rajin mana..bukannya terer masak smpai nk share2 resepi yg hebat2..
masak pun sekadar yg biasa2 je..kalo teringan nk makan menu istimewa, sy google je..masak berpandukan resepi org..resepi sendiri mmg takde la..
bak kata husband sy, alah, janji masak dpd tak msak langsung..nasib baik la dia bukannya jenis yg memilih bab makanan ni..


nk share gmbr2 tempat pelancongan yg best, kami tak ke mana pun..plg2 blk kg..itu je..


tapi sy cuba utk check comments especially yg mintak no Ah-Fatt..sy cuba utk reply comments anda and emailkan no Ah-Fatt..
tapi sy tak pasti la if dia masih guna no sama ke tak..sbb dh lama kan, sekarang ni dh tahun 2013..kot la dia dh tukar no ke apa ke..
dia bukannya ada syarikat ke apa ke..dia bekerja sendiri..senang katanya..ada syarikat susah katanya, nk manage pekerja la, takut kualiti tak bagus la, harag dh naik la, itu la ini la..
kdg2 dia bw wife dgn anak2 dia dtg sekali..tapi diorg tak buat keja la..sekadar peneman kot..

i don't have a life

sad but true..
yup, i don't have a life, a social life..
my life revolves around my husband and my baby boy (ever since i quit my work)..
u can call me pathetic, i think i am too..
i envy people who hang out with their friends or someone else other than their spouses or children..
i miss all that..
i miss socializing with friends, making decisions of where to go and what to do next..
and now, the only medium for me to socialize is facebook..and i hate it..but i need it..so it's kind of love-hate relationship...

and to make it even worse, i feel really bad that my husband doesn't get to hang out with his friends either because of him not wanting me to be alone at home..

much as i try, i still couldn't get a permanent job..don't know why..so the only option left for me is to stick with being a part time lecturer who only gets to teach like 4 or 6 hours a week..even though this part-time teaching job could give me almost 2k a month but still i want a permanent job so badly..

sigh...deep sigh...really really deep sigh..
maybe it's not the time yet for me to have a permanent job...Allah has a better plan for me..i believe that Allah wants me to be there 24/7 for my baby boy so that i can raise him and guide him..i shall wait and not give up...so for now, i am going to live with i have and be happy with it..i am happy but sometimes this stupid feeling came creeping in...

okay...

anak?

assalamualaikum semua..how's ur day? hope everything's good..

well, mine is okay..with a little worry about life and what future has in store for us..
coming back to the title above, i think i would like to share my thoughts about having kids..
actually, i had a chat with one close friend..she was and still is one of the people i look up to especially her language proficiency..one of the few people i could confide in whenever i have problems and we would share secrets and thoughts..i love her though we don't contact each other as often as we should these days..

she got married before me..like early that year..and she told me that she is sad because she still couldn't seem to get pregnant..she wants to get pregnant so badly, maybe because she has reaches her 30s this year and her husband is like 3 or 4 years older than her..so time is ticking...they are getting older..she wants to get and to seek specialist's opinions and treatments...i told to go as soon as possible because as i said earlier, time is ticking and it waits for no man..i hope she can get pregnant as soon as possible..i really do..i think when she has a child she would stop thinking about other things..u see, she likes to think, a bit philosophical i think..an intelligent lady who likes to think about life and then get stressed about it..

u see, she has been married for almost two years now..at first, she told me that she wasn't ready to get pregnant and therefore she had family planning..i understand her, she's quite weak and vulnerable and get stressed easily..and to add to that, she had to travel every week for her master's classes..that's why she said she wasn't ready to get pregnant..

i told her that  we shouldn't plan our first child..never ever think of it..i have 2 reasons of why we should't plan our first child..

1) every child is Allah's rezeki..let us put it this way..kita tanak anak lagi sbb kita tak ready, kewangan tak stabil, atau sebab kita muda lagi, bila kita cakap mcm tu, sama lah seperti kita bgtau Allah yang kita tak ready nak terima rezeki dari Dia..atau dgn kasarnya, kita tanak rezeki Dia..perlu ke kita buat mcm tu..anak itu rezeki Allah yang paling berharga, lebih dari duit, pekerjaan dan usia..
my aunties cukup marah kalau ada ahli keluaraga yg cakap nak plan anak pertama..yelah, org dulu2 lebih makan garamnya sbb tu la diorg tau byk..
apart from my friend who i mentioned above, i have few friends who find it difficult for them to get pregnant..i feel sorry for them..but then again, i think that their difficulties are due to them not wanting get pregnant secepat mungkin..and sekarang dh susah nak pregnant sbb dulu tanak sgt2 pregnant..
tapi ntah la, semua rezeki Allah..

2) this is what my husband says : anak pertama jgn sekali dirancang sbb kita tak tau kesihatan kita mcm mana..cthnya la kan, kalao kita dh umur 30 nanti baru nak ada anak, pastu tak pregnant mesti kita stress kan..kita tak tau tahap kesihatan kita mcm mana..mungkin luaran nmpak sihat, tapi bahagian produktif kita tak sesihat yang kita sangka..then nak g berubat, jumpa pakar..tak ke dh amik masa yg lama utk semua tu..alih-alih 3 atau 4 tahun lepas tu baru berjaya pregnant..tak ke sayang sbb dh bazirkan masa, dgn duit sekali..at least kalo kita nak pregnant di awal perkahwinan tapi tak berjaya, kita dh blh usahakan dgn jumpa pakar ke berubat ke..dh jimat masa dan wang..

ini cuma pendapat saya..tak semestinya betul..semua manusia punya pandanganyang berbeza..ini ialah apa yg saya rasa dan sebab musabab yang saya sendiri fikir tantang kenapa kita tak perlu nak merancang anak pertama..

mixed feelings

lately, i've been having mixed feelings..i don't know why..i couldn't figure out why..
been thinking about lotsa things and yet couldn't seem to find ways to make things better..

"ya Allah, aku berdoa dan memohon agar Kau bimbinglah aku dan berkatilah kehidupan hamba Mu ini..aku percaya pada rezekiMu..hanya dari Mu ku meminta kerana Kaulah yang maha satu.."

Thank you Almighty

last few days had been a melancholic days for me..i had been thinking a lot..i am afraid of coming to the end of December because i know that i will be jobless again..my term will end on 31th December..i've been working as a part-time tutor since last August and now it's coming to an end and i am not looking forward to it..the term is to be renewed every semester..so i need to wait for a few months before i can re-apply to be a part-time tutor at this university again..the next semester begins in February or March 2012..erghhhhh...i know i should start looking for a job but i don't want to work full-time now that i am comfortable working part-time..what should i do? i don't want to leave my baby but at the same time i want to be a woman with a career that i can be proud of..i want to have my own pay check, to feel the excitement of getting sms from the bank saying that u've been credited with money of your hard work, to spend your own earned money buying things you want to buy and not feeling guilty about it, to be able to give more money to my mama and to buy things for my papa and my siblings, to buy stuffs for and to treat my husband and baby with many things..how i miss working full-time.but this is my decision, i am the one who decided to quit teaching in UiTM Machang..and so i have to live with it..i told my husband that i will work full-time once i graduate from UiTM with my Masters Degree..so i have to wait one more year before i can start applying for a teaching position in higher learning institutions..i hope it's worth the one year wait...
but for now, i am thankful for what i have..my husband is working days and nights to provide comfort to our family..he never forgets me and our precious baby, buying things for us, treating and giving us with what we want..he always tries his best to give the best to his loved ones even if it means sacrificing himself..

THANK U B..i can never imagine life without u..
THANK U ALLAH SWT for the life u have given me, the pain and happiness u've put me through so that i know what life is..

hubby's cousin is getting married and i'm so not ready

my husband's cousin is getting married at the end of this month, the solemnization is on the 27th to be exact and will be held at his future wife's hometown which is also my hometown..tempat je sama tapi kg lain-lain..what a small world..the reception on the groom's side will be held on the 3rd of december in melaka..


weddings dh dekat dh and i'm not ready lagi la..bukannya ready apa, yg sy maksudkan ialah i am not ready in the sense that i don't have nice kurungs to wear for the receptions and i still have extra kgs on me that i need to shed off. bila la these extra baggage nk kurang kan? haishh...i do have nice kurungs for special occasions but i don't think i can fit into them anymore..yg tak muatnya ialah bhgian 'gonggong' dan perut, bhgian lain okay je..owh, mungkin kena selongkar gerobok dan pakai je la apa yg muat..maybe i can squeeze myself into my kurungs for work, sbbnya my kurungs for work ni longgar dan takde fesyen2..btw, i have kurungs for work and kurungs for special occasions and also kurungs for me to wear at home ..


atau sempatkah utk menghilangkan few kgs ek? kena diet la tapi apakan daya diet semuanya tak membantu...kesimpulannya ialah lain kali jgn diikutkan sgt nafsu makan semasa mengandung kalo tanak naik kgs dgn jayanya..well, it's a lesson learnt..

of congrats and congrates

maaf la ye, sy tiba2 rasa ianya sgt penting utk sy berbicara ttg hal ini..well, u see, there seems to be quite a number of people who say congrates instead of congrats..ramai sgt yg guna congrates ni..mana diorg belajar pun sy tatau..jadi sy sebagai salah seorang warga pendidik Bahasa Inggeris ingin membantu membetulkan keadaan ini..

wahai rakan-rakan sekalian, dan juga pelajar-pelajar sekalian, it is CONGRATS and not congrates..kalo rasa takut salah eja, baik tulis penuh2 je CONGRATULATION.lagi selamat..lagi bijak..

please use the right word with the right spelling..tak lucu dan sgt tak intelligent okay guna congrates..